The waves kept pushing me downwards;
Forcing me into the abyss,
It kept rising high above me
My head, still underneath.
You can’t move quickly through water.
Your arms and legs are slow,
You try to move, force them through,
But they refuse to go.
You try to fight the drowning,
You try to swim against,
The torrent flowing on top of you,
Your whole body is tense.
You think you can make out the surface,
See where it will end.
But have you got the strength?
Has God anymore to lend?
Another wave crashes over you,
Forcing you back down,
You didn’t even get a last breath,
Before you’re about to drown.
Just one more push you think
I can’t stay down forever
“It will eventually let you up” they say
But to me, it seems like never.
Finally I’ve forced myself through
I’ve gotten out of bed
The waves of despair let me up
Just as people said.
It takes strength to do it once
For that I’m very sure
But courage to know that it’s a daily fight
That takes many months to cure.